wondering. wandering.

I haven’t conducted any polls lately, but I suspect that a large percentage of Ben’s Friends readers believe in absolutes. Great. I accept absolutes. But how do I know what the absolutes are. Is it an absolute because I've read a few books about it or have observed it? Can I be sure of it because I've examined one smidgin of a percentage of the evidence that's out there, or because my unreliable senses have perceived it, or because it makes sense to my finite, 21st-century-white-male-american-christianized-middle-class mind? Perhaps our universe is governed by absolutes, as a well-ordered universe would be, but do I give myself too much credit in imagining that I have figured out the absolutes of reason and theology? Any thoughts?
It bothers me that I’ll never be able to comprehensively study out everything there is to know about truth. There’s just too much data. But what bothers me more is that I don’t care. I’m limited more by laziness and dishonesty than I am by intellectual finiteness. Even if I were able to examine all the evidence for the existence of God or the historicity of the resurrection, I’m unconvinced that I would be diligent enough, or truly interested enough in the cold unforgiving truth, to really find out for myself. My brain is trumped by my desires. My wandering heart fails me long before my gray matter does.